Substantive blogging.

I don't feel like I am holding up my end of the bargain. Aren't I supposed to be writing about all things relevant? Important? Life changing? Well, if I am, I am failing. Since having had my fourth child and being all-consumed with all the change going on in our lives right now, I am failing. 

Or, am I thriving?

I feel neglectful, as though things are only being done halfway. That just isn't the case though. When I step back and look at my life I can see all that Steve and I are accomplishing. In leaps and bounds. I suppose it's the being "in it" that takes away from one's ability to "see it". 

I am proud of all that we have done and continue to do. Car battery dead at 4:45 am when you're supposed to be on your way to the airport to catch a  5:50 flight? And there's no one around? No problem. Call a cab, pack up the two kids and get your hinies to the airport without whining, and deal with it when you get back. Six doors for the new house fall off a forklift and have to be re-ordered, thereby setting your completion date back another few days? No problem. Too cold to pour asphalt, necessitating that you wait until spring to really have a driveway of any kind? Just go with it. Brother fighting depression and he lives two hours away and you can't get your hands on him to hug him? In Fr. Corapi's words, "Don't worry. Pray". Baby's schedule completely screwed up because of time changes and traveling? Let it go. He's four months old and if you have to hold him all day long. So be it. He'll only be a baby once. Enjoy the sweet smell of the nape of his neck. All day long.

We're okay. We're blessed. I read the gospel to the kids this morning and was, again, reminded to be grateful. Shut up. Stop whining. Just say "thank you". Jesus heals ten lepers and only one remembers to come back and say "thank you". Am I like that one, or am I too often more like the other nine who go on about their way, never stopping, never going back to say, "Lord, I love you. Thank you. Thank you for this life. These children. This husband. Thank you." ?

The substance of my blog post today is just to say "thanks". And, sometimes that good enough.